Hi deleteandreset-
You cope by not thinking about what you've lost, but rather, what you 've gained. You're free now. Free to be the person you were meant tobe, without the constrictions of worrying about whether or not what you're doing meets the approval of the organization, and by extension, Jehovah.
Figuring out what that is may be easier said than done, but at least you can do so without guilt or judgment.